I had an idea
for something
that might make me
okay

and I can recover
from love
but it won't be
today

it turns out that
being myself
is harder
to change

in not pleasing
anyone else
why can't I
catch a break

I didn't even
ask to know
and it doesn't
help

I cannot teach
others to do
what I can't do
myself

under the layers
I laid on
no one is
home
 
and I can't even
manage
to be alone

_